To Begin Again Testo

I want to be stuck inside you, notFinding these replacements for you
Listen to silence in my head
Happiness hangs by a thin thread
When I went blind
My sadness shined
I could not find
Moods in my mind
Fucking myself 'til I can't think about it
Fucking myself 'til I don't know
I can tell what I can swallow
I want to become so hollow
I am such a fucking creep and
I've dug so much fucking deeper
I've begun to begin again
But I wish it had been the end