Sorry Testo

no one is ever as they appear.
what the mirror reflectd, I chosse to reject.
I hide it inside, in myself I fear.

tell me? what do you see?
tell me? what do you see in me?

just a sheep in wolf's clothing.
filled with hate, filled with self loathing.
for no one seems to see me,
see me as I really am.
not a paragon, nor an adonis.
not a violent man I promise,
but affectionate and caring,
I'm an honest, loving man.

misery is a lonely state,
and one I know so well.
just an island of emotion,
in a self tormenting hell.
once again the bottle I try hard to cast,
a simple plea for some help from outside.
though I wait in hope I know it's all in vain,
for I never put the message