Contemplating Testo

these daily frustrations are wearing me downred and raw till I'm lying,
crying alone on the floor I whimper
and plead from some relief from this pain
you're beating me, beating me,
broken and strained
hiding in the closet of my own shame
you do this to me,
I'm so flawed
you don't think me worthy to die
left to my own devices has this,
my ignorant mind found the solution you've left open for me?
You're casual cruelty tells me this much
That I neither deserve to live But condescend
never to have my blood on YOUR hands
So I am left contemplating
Is this what you want me to do?
Shall I rid the world of me,
My plague of uselessness?
Ill do you all a service then
Because I am weak,
I cannot hold
Contemplate taking it all
In one fell swoop, there will be no more