To Believe Testo

I am half of what I want to beBut I am more than you might ever see
I am tired of you tearing out a part of me
Just to appease your insecurities
5 years ago your words were all I knew
That I would never be anyone or get further than you
Funny i just took it all and threw it right back
And where are you now? You're still there--
nowhere
You are glowing with pride
As you cut away at my insides
Who did you find in there?
An empty shell lost and bare?
Look beyond yourself you'll see
I'm just lying here and I'm trying
to believe
Built the great wall of defense to protect my will
Severed all of our ties but you haunt my confidence still
Spent those years as an insecure slave to you
I swallowed your venom and filled up on doubt
But I purge the past and push my way out
Kick against your judgements let the poison filter through
I am becoming someone new--
without you
You are glowing with pride
As you cut away at my insides
Who did you find in there?
An empty shell lost and bare?
Look beyond yourself you'll see
I'm just lying here and I'm trying
to believe